Life, A Time Machine?

In a glimpse of an eye, another year is about to end. Starting with another fresh year → 2014 with new hopes await. What do you want to fulfill in year 2014?
Give some changes to yourself, be a better and grateful person than before. Don't be static with where you are. Instead, make improvements and push yourself to be one of the best.
It's easy just saying but to be That Person, it takes effort, determination, perseverance and patience.
Next year it will be my last year of being a teenager. I mean with a '1' in front if the second digit. 19. Exactly 5 months and 2 days to my special day.
A day which when you pass 21, you won't want to celebrate anymore. A day that reminds you of your age. It's also a good day to be thankful to your parents for not abandoning you but to nurture you.
Life. A time machine that travels you throughout the years. You see, you hear, you feel, you taste and you smell. The 5 senses that helped you carry through life.
Life may be cruel, at times. It may be sweet. This is Life. You enter a new year and end it with 365 days. Then enter another year. It's a repeating process of life...

Christmas isn't really Christmas without Jesus.

There is this verse which kept on ringing in my hand and I've no other choice but to share it.
John 3:16 says that "For God so loved the world that He gave His One and Only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life."
��Christmas isn't about Santa Claus, neither it's about having the biggest Christmas tree, it isn't about the gift we received instead there's a special gift for everyone. The only thing you have to do is to receive Him. His name is Jesus. He humbly came to this world and interact with His own creation. He is the savior and by accepting Him into your heart, your sins are cleanse and you gain freedom. Christmas is about Jesus. The one and only one who saves us from sins, who heals, who answers prayers. So are you willing to accept this special gift ���� this Christmas? ��

Object that symbolise me

This morning, our literature lecturer assigned us to use an object that best symbolise ourselves.
He was teaching us poetry, one of my favourite in English.
I associated myself with a door. There are a few reasons why I selected a house door:
A door acts as a protection to a household.
Without a door, the job of a thief will be made much more easier.
It also guards the house, preventing the owner of the house from danger and harm.
To me (since I'm the eldest), my siblings are just like the owner of the house.
When enemies attack, they usually attack the door first.
I'm willing to sacrifice first and protect them from those enemies.
They have a very special place in my heart. And I love them.
A key is also needed to unlock the door.
To know me better, a person must first have the key to unlock the inner me.
I might look serious and mature on the outside but once the door is unlocked,
there you'll find the original me.

 

Classes are getting fun each day. Love my course mates and my course and lecturers too.
Our class have been receiving good comments from the lecturers these past few weeks.
Proud of my class ----> PPISMP TESL Sem1.

Gratitude

Gratitude - one word that is defined as the feeling of being grateful and wanting to express your thanks, yet not everyone is able to be grateful about things.

I admit that sometimes, I can't really express my gratitude and I do not feel grateful all the time. I do complain about my life, of how terrible and lacking I am. I would also compare myself with those who are richer and more capable than me. I used to have this habit of being competitive  and being materialistic. I thought I had grown up of this stage but to my disappointment, I haven't. I've failed myself and also my mum.

It's really a sad case to see myself being this way. I hate being this way but somehow I just feel this way. Maybe I think too much, I worry about unnecessary things, of how people might think about me. It's because of ingratitude and materialisms  that I become disenchanted with what can last forever: relationships.

Nevertheless, I'm happy to have a mum who has strong will about life and also about eternity.

She is the one who nurture my down-cast spirit. She is just like calcium which strengthen my bones. I cannot imagine my life without her. She encourages me when I really need it the most. My prayer to God is please do extend her life-span on earth.

Well, I complaint to her again today. Then she told me a story.

It went like this:

There was once a girl who lived in a city but her family was poor. Her father has been borrowing money from money-lender and there were times when gangsters will come to their doorsteps, banging on the door to demand her father to pay the money that he owed. The girl's life was in danger and she never once feels safe or secure. She is always in alarmed about what might happen next. Fear dwelt within her as there would always be unexpected 'visitors' with thuggish brutality of treating to kill her family if the debts are not settled. She made a vow to herself that she will never let her mother suffer in this kind of situation any more. She wants to be rich and to be protected by true love. She craved for security. But she didn't realize that she has created a creature of unsatisfactory, the desire to owe more and ultimately turned into covetousness, longing for things people has.

After a decade, she was married to a rich man. She nearly has everything she wants but her life was never happy.

She would grumble over her life of how lacking she is but she never once think about the person who is poorer than her.

Her life ended miserably. 

Finally, she asked me: Do you want your life to be like hers? Look at the people around you, not everyone is rich. Maybe God placed you in this family because He wants you to be someone better. Let's say, if you are born in a rich family, not lacking anything, will you learn to be thankful or will you to consider others besides yourself? 

What she said made me thought deeply...

I like this.  

Common occurrence in life.

It's past midnight and I'm still here in the living room, staring at my computer, typing.

I can feel that my eyes are going to bulge out soon.  I just need some space to put my thoughts into words and I think that Blogger is the best place. So, yeah~

Piles of assignments are stacked up, yet non has been completely done.

What's wrong with me, that made me stop?

No ideas? Have no single knowledge to doing it?

I'm feeling agitatedly irritated!

Frustrated… STRESS UP!

These feelings flown through my soul, yet it's still the same.

Not going forward, just ends there.

What am I doing?

What am I thinking?

What have I been writing? Or searching?

Where is the results?

Where the completed job?

*sigh*

They are all there…

Silence  

Two weeks of Raya holidays are nearly coming to an end.

School… Oh wait, it's college life will soon start again in... (counting)

3 more days. That is equivalent to 72 hours.

I miss my college life yet on the other hand, I need more time to complete my work.

We have been told that 2013 batch (which is my first semester) will have some chances concerning the subjects we take. It will be tougher and the government deducted 1 semester from the actual period to finish this course.

So, our seniors would take 5 years and a half month to graduate while we only need 5 years. Our lecturer also stated that we are like guinea pigs to them since almost every subject have some slight chances, more critical thinking is involved.

It's tough but I made my stand of never giving up easily.

Determination is what you need to hang on.

There is no free lunch in this world.

We all have to put in effort and hard work.

Guess my efforts are not enough. 

 Self motivation:

I'm not going to let stress block my way.

If it does, kick it off.

But don't forget to carry on with your unfinished work.

Stop stressing up yourself, Lydia and move on!   

Just another month

Another new month has born! Welcoming baby August.

I'm back to blogging.

Hi there, readers! It's been a decade since my last post.
There's so many interesting happenings to share with you guys.

1st of April till 28th May: 
I was chosen for the National Service in Tanaki, Tambunan. Dorcas and I were placed in the same location.
Coincidence? Lucky? I am sure that God planned it. He has His own ways to make things possible.
The National Service in Malaysia is a duration of 3 months but since I'm taking form 6, there is an exception for me to attend it for only 2  months and besides that, I'll get a certificate of participation.
During my participation in this camp, I was acquainted to some friends and eventually became intimate friends. They are pretty awesome friends to be with but only they enjoy spotting for cute guys. =.=
What more intriguing about us is four of us have 慧 (hui) in our Chinese name.
There are five of us: Wei Hui, Nicole, Me, Siew Hui and Mimi.
There are times when the non-Chinese find fault with us maybe because they envy us but we always stay together just like close sisters.

I enjoy the 2 months camp being with them. I also learnt a lot from their personal life. Hope we will maintain this intimate relationship. I really treasure them a lot. =') 

10th June till 17th June:
My first day of pre-university life in Kota Kinabalu high school.
New environment to adept, unknown names to be made known and unfamiliar faces to be familiar with.
I remember that I promise myself to be my best in every expect when I stepped my first step into this school.
I don't want to let myself down any more, I don't want to be disappointed with myself like I was with my SPM result. I want to acknowledge God with my good results. I am aiming for 4-flat. That wouldn't be easy for an average student like me but with God's powerful strength, I am able to do it.
My classmates are very friendly and I felt the warm among them. They are the type of persons with positive mind-set and very encouraging. I believe I can make it to the top with their help.

17th June:
The result for IPG (teachers' college) is out! I cannot believe my eyes! I was accepted! I was over-joy.
What made me even more happy was the subject I'm taking is TESL
(Teaching English as Second Language) and the college I'm placed in is just near my house!
IPG Gaya, opposite to Queen Elizabeth Hospital! I can go back during the weekends and there is no need for me to travel all the way to West Malaysia. This is really God's plan.
Luck cannot always be accurate. So, I believe it is God who is taking control of my future life.
Since God has prepare the way for me, all I need to do now is focus on my studies and run away from distraction.

Officially studying as a teacher. =)

A new chapter just begins.

Let's put our hands together to welcome year 2013!
Good-bye year 2012, we wouldn't be seeing you any more in the future and thanks for the memories you provided us with.
What had passed, had passed.
Let us not look backward but with God besides us, let us continue our journey of life.
Just like what Pastor James preached:
2 stands for (2) To be connected to a live group and ministry
0 stands for (0) Zero offences within our brothers and sisters
1 stands for (1) One mission: win at least 1 soul
3 stands for (3) Three things remain: Faith, Hope and Love.

Let us be a better us in everything we do.
Do not have any regrets about what we have done or give up in whatever goals that we haven't accomplish but to look forward and set new goals.
Just like what Paul wrote to the Philippians saying:
"Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead, I press on toward the goal to win the prize for which God has called me heavenward in Christ Jesus. "

So...

Another new chapter of yours and my life just begin.
I want to write a better story in this new chapter.
What about you? ;-)